July 8, 2012
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Am I doing this right?
Some days I feel like Warrior Mother, kicking ass and raising awesome humans. Other days I just feel exhausted and wonder if I am doing anything right at all. Today is the latter. Sophie has a tooth just about to break through the skin and she is cranky, not falling asleep as easy as she usually does and waking at the slightest noise. She also is my glue shadow and doesn't want to be without me for a moment. I'm not sure what is teething, what is normal developmental stuff, and what is something I'm doing wrong (if anything). All I know is the last day or two has been tough.
Even so, I count my many blessings. She is healthy, and appears to be a very curious, alert, and happy baby. Hopefully if I am taking a few wrong turns she will be smart and resilient enough to weather them. Oh, and I love her with every fiber of my being. So there's that, too.
Comments (8)
I wouldn't worry about it. You're not required to be perfect. One thing she has to learn is how to deal with imperfect humans.... frustration... pain... all those things in life that we all get. I'm like you and would love to be able to fix everything for Tiny, but sometimes I just don't have the power. She has gas today and is cranky... I've bathed her and patted her and fed her and changed diapers and hugged her and played with her... but she still has gas and needs to poop lol. It'll be fine. It's not your job to make her life pain free. Fatigue makes everything seem worse in the moment too....
@oceanstarr - oh yes, fatigue is a mind melter!
Even cranky (her) and self-doubting (you), the two of you make me smile. So there's that, too.
@doahsdeer - That's worth a yay!, I'd say.
It's been a lotta years... but you are doing things completely right and normal. There were days I cried and wondered how I would ever raise a child... and now, mine is 24, a teacher, and a wonderful woman. In spite of my parenting skills, or lack thereof... You're doing nothing wrong. Just be her mommy...
@Emjay1 - Thanks! I'm trying to mix instinct and knowledge and sometimes they don't totally jive. But as you said, I'm just being mom and trusting in the universe that she will survive even when I make mistakes.
If parents didn't take the occasional wrong turn, none of us would be well-prepared for the twists and turns of life. I am sure you're doing a wonderful job with Sophie! She already looks like she will grow up to be inquisitive, intelligent, thoughtful woman.
Aw, thanks Laura. I'm sure she will, but mostly because of her inner spirit! I do my best, but I think she was born fabulous! And of course I'm not biased.
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