Oh, hai again! I’m 11 months old today! Time sure does fly when you are a rapidly growing baby. Or at least that’s what mommy says. I spend all my time exploring so I don’t think too much yet about the passage of time. That’s probably a good thing. I saw a puppy! It was like a small Lucy. I love Lucy very much. I have fun playing with all sorts of other babies at the play dates and story times mommy takes me to. And by playing with I mean trying to eat, mostly. I have taken a total of 7 unaccompanied steps now! Mommy seems delighted. I am still not sure what I’m doing exactly but it’s fun. I eat all sorts of food these days. My favorite is eggs. I love eggs. And peaches. And carrot. I still love carrots an awful lot. I love the sound that my teeth makes when they grind together. This makes mommy crazy! Ha ha! I also love to clap and wiggle my booty and bob up and down. Life is just lots of fun! Except when I’m tired. Being tired is really awful. Okay, I guess that’s all for now! See you in a month!
*edit* I’m a day early, apparently. I’ve thought it was the 22nd all day but it’s the 21st..

Today is Child the Eldest’s 18th birthday. My heart is heavy with sadness. I have always been very open about the goings-on in my life, perhaps because I have the soul of a writer or perhaps because I don’t have the mental power to keep track of what is public and what is private anymore, what with the age of social media and all. But I think this is one thing I must keep mostly private out of respect for Child the Eldest. I will say only that she is having a hard time finding her way in this world right now and that I’m quite anxious and very sad. I also want Sophie to know, when she gets older, that her Big Big Sister loves her very much, and that is all that truly matters. Big Big was once an innocent baby too, and in many way, still is. Today, I light a candle and sit in prayer for our oldest child. God be with you, dear one.