August 11, 2012
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Today is Child the Eldest's 18th birthday. My heart is heavy with sadness. I have always been very open about the goings-on in my life, perhaps because I have the soul of a writer or perhaps because I don't have the mental power to keep track of what is public and what is private anymore, what with the age of social media and all. But I think this is one thing I must keep mostly private out of respect for Child the Eldest. I will say only that she is having a hard time finding her way in this world right now and that I'm quite anxious and very sad. I also want Sophie to know, when she gets older, that her Big Big Sister loves her very much, and that is all that truly matters. Big Big was once an innocent baby too, and in many way, still is. Today, I light a candle and sit in prayer for our oldest child. God be with you, dear one.
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My thoughts to you and your eldest. I guess it's something where she has to come to her own path and fingers crossed, it's agreeable to what you would like for her. But . . . yeah. I can't summarize anything to make things easier, not that you're searching for easy or expecting it. But I wish I could do that.
I will join you in prayer. This world is cold and hard, but it is also full of joy and grace. May she find her way. May she find peace (and you).
Sorry to hear this. I hope she finds happiness.
Very nice, wish my parents were the same, they are all "You are going to be so sorry you were rude when you move out and get a life of your own",etc.
(I'm 14 btw so have a few years yet so HAHAHA !!!).
Finding our way in the world is just about the hardest thing there is, but often, just when we think we'll never figure it out, the most extraordinary things happen. I believe that extraordinary things await Child the Eldest.
Ah, Child the Eldest is at a crucial age - too old to be treated as a child, too young and inexperienced to fully assume an adult role. From the tone of the post, it sounds like you are fully aware of this and treating her gently. I wish both her and you well - may all the love help her get her bearings.
I will put out a late, but hopeful prayer for her to come full circle safely and happily. Many good thoughts headed your way.
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